As the year comes to an end I cant help but do what most people do around this time, Reflect! I’ve gone through a lot in my short life time, but I could definitely say that this year was a major turning point. First and foremost, I turned the big 2-5 this year, an age that gives way to life contemplation in its self. As soon as I turned 25, I started feeling an irregular shift. I’m usually very intuitive and feel different energies, but this one was not like one I’ve experienced before. I soon realize the shift was caused by subconscious feelings of frustration and a lack of fulfillment. Here I was fresh into my 25th year of life and just feeling extremely sad and empty, I must admit a lot of that had to do with problems from previous years rolling over. So I woke up one day and decided I didn’t want to be the person I had been or living in the insane cycle that I referred to as my life. I initiated the change, I knew that I couldn’t do it alone, so I turned to the one who I knew would help me regardless of who and how I was, God. I started to talk to him daily, tried in the best of my ability to understand his words, walking in the path of Jesus, learning to forgive and most importantly learning how to love unconditionally (something I’m still working on). As the year progressed I came upon another realization, I had to separate myself from certain situations and people, I’d alway put so much energy into other people’s life, goals and feelings that I completely put myself on the back burner. It hurt me to have had to let them go, but I knew in my heart that it was the best decision for myself and the other people involved in the long run. If I was going to be a new person, I couldn’t let anything or anyone hold me back. After leaving my heavy baggage, I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and heart. I can admit that the transition was difficult and that I was hit hard with some very trying times, but with the support of my God, my friends and my wonderful fiance I was able to overcome it and count it all joy. I had to really look with in myself and reevaluate who id become and the person I wanted to be. In psychology they always say that the root of the most of our problems stem from our childhood, so I went all the way back there in order to remember who I was and the things I was really passionate about as a child. In all honesty, I’d always known what my passions were and my identity, but I’d always let my fears get in the way of potential. This year has paved the way and opened doors to the future that God has planned for me, I have grown drastically ; spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. I can proudly say that as of today, I am not longer living in fear, my eyes have been opened to the endless possibilities that I hold, I’m capable of doing any and all things that I set my mind on, within me lives greatness and I am enough. I am extremely excited for 2018 and am looking forward to further growth and future accomplishments.
For I know the plans have for you,” declares the , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”